When it was time , I was small , living in the own world of happiness and contentment. No one to compare with and no one to defeat. just satisfied with what was around the four closed walls. The feeling of always being at the top and good at just everything we did. praises and applauds for even the stupidest of the projects and a pat on the back for burning the mid night oil.
People approaching you for suggestions and advices, your piece of word adding value to them, the absolute value of feeling important your world was small and you were the biggest in that world. But life is not only about those bed of roses where you are the queen or the king of all the good times. life moves on and so the four closed walls seems to expand their arms and open up to indefinite outings. The pure breath seems to be going out and the enormous complicated air seems to be coming in. Thats the time you need to get out of your comfort zone and feel the outside atmosphere that there is a world much more than what you really thought it to be like.
Different faces, different moods , different emotions and different faces all around you. An innocent being just puts a feet forward and shakes hands with the other, shares the previous life and feels an extension to one self and on the right side you meet just another one you share the same feeling , vent your heart out for you feel that someone just feels the same that you do.. Like these you meet a couple of them and more and more.. But every time you meet them, all are not just the same because the way you have been brought has been quite different than the other. Cuddled in that warm pillow and always protected from the outside world, you have always felt the warmth of it all and have not been touched by the feeling of being responsible, the feeling of being defeated , the feeling of being compared , the feeling of being conscious of your acts all the time and the feeling of always being in a dilemma.
Thats the reality that hits when you come out, you are not alone in this world rather your just a speck of dust on this huge earth. You cant rule the world and you cant be right all the time because the knowledge that you have may just be enough for you but not for others , who have been equally competitive and have reached a level after a lot of hard work. There will be time when not all your efforts will be appreciated and not every work of your will be the best. There will be taunt at each level and restrictions at each step, no one to support and no one to help you for what you do because from those whom you seek the most tend to disappoint you the most. Disregard to what you achieve with all that seems to be making the entire effort worth less. As a human mind can take a negative reaction once, twice and thrice but every time the same thing may not be acceptable in turn leads to a heart break. Probably every time there is a disappointing thought or and instances, life takes us towards the spiritual us and makes us think whether all this is really worthwhile or not . Do we really need to fight or it will happen the way its meant to be. is it being selfish to withdraw yourself from something you don't enjoy or is it fine to take a decision and move ahead with it.
Mind seems to be on a blank out stage where , we wish that some direction was given and a light was thrown onto us to make sure that we are on the right track. But i guess its the inner self which is the only answer to these questions. No one from the outside can help in solving this.
Time will give the real answer whether, it was the right thing to still be that speck of dust in this whole big earth or rise up to be that sand dune which gets the sunshine first........
