The Subtle art of accepting CHANGE
It’s a cold chilly morning. We are cuddled in our furry
quilts and sleeping close to each other. “Tee tee tee tee…..tee tee tee goes
the alarm at 6:00am. A voluntary wakeup call that was set the previous night with
high ambitions of going for the morning workout. One hand out of the quilt and quickly
putting the alarm in snooze mode before my child wakes up because of the sound and
giving myself 10 mins bonus to wake up. And its 6:10am, do I still want to wake
up? I feel de-motivated today, no zeal to go out and give any stress to the
body. The whole point of even working out seems just waste and I tell myself – I
am not going and I just want to be here in my bed. The clock moves at its own
pace and I keep sleeping till anyone even wakes me up. I hurriedly wake up when
I hear the soft voice of my daughter calling “MUMMA” “MUMMA” – “POTTY”. This
alarm has no snooze and no closure. I have to get on to my toes and start the
morning chore. The duties and responsibilities in life sometimes bind you to
get going or rather to forget yourself for some time. I was doing what I was
supposed to do but it wasn’t the same. I was feeling a bit low, did not feel
like speaking to anyone, getting all negative thoughts in mind. If I sit down
to think and analyze I know the situation just gets worse so the obvious way out
was to keep doing what I was supposed to do. I rejected a friend’s invitation to
go for a coffee. I just wanted to sit at my home and practically do nothing. The
mind is filled with fear and unwanted thoughts. They keep coming and passing
by. For once I started checking the P- Tracker to see if it was all because of
PMS- Pre Menstrual Syndrome. The date is far away still. So that option remains
ruled out. Unable to figure out, nevertheless the day has passed by and it’s
time to go back to the furry blanket “waiting” for the next day to begin.
Tee tee tee….tee tee tee..Its 6:00 am again. I wake up at
the single shot of the alarm. I dress up in my best attire to go the gym and
spray that deodorant to make sure that I smell just the right. I put on my Bluetooth
and listen to some favorites that I had downloaded a week ago. The music is
blaring early morning and my head shaking at the pace of the volume. I give my
100% in the class and walk out with sweaty confidence. On my way back I make a couple of video calls
and talk to my peeps, make some good laugh and discuss about what next and how.
I reach home and cuddle my child and get on to my toes to begin with my duties
and responsibilities. I put on music in the house and crack some jokes with my
helpers to lighten their stress of working the whole day in this cold weather. I
sip my coffee and cheese toast with full smile thinking I deserve it after the
rigorous workout and sweat. I put on my overcoat and high boots to be ready to
go to the office and finish the important tasks of the day. I am full of energy
and thank my stars for the perfect life I have. Its evening and probably just
want to grab a drink before I end the day. We go to the nearby bar and fulfill this
small wish to add a cherry on the cake of the day. Nevertheless the day has
passed by and it’s time to go back to the furry blanket “looking forward” to
the next day to begin.
Same person but two different
days!!! I have always thought that we humans are made up of chemicals. We
always want to believe that there might have been some chemical deficiency or
extra hormonal discharge that we need to take a third person guidance to come
to a conclusion about the changes so sudden. But over a period I realize that
nothing seems to be permanent in this life. Every day is yet another day with you,
with me and with all of us. We panic, we stress out, we make haste decisions, and
we throw ourselves all over the place. It’s all with the thought process of considering
the permanence in the state of mind and situation. It’s that trepidation at the
time of pessimism that scares you to believe that it’s going to be there
forever and it’s that ecstasy at the time of optimism which makes the reality
of impermanence oblivious. The jain theory of “SAT” strongly emphasizes on this concept which means there is origination-destruction-permanence-
permanent as well as momentary state of an entity are both real and existent. All
this while it was literature to me but with experience the concepts just get
clearer. Change is inevitable and patience is the virtue to handle that change.
Our temperament of reaction on an action is implausible. Waking up to the fact
that today I’m my own queen and accepting the fact that I’m my own pauper is
the way life is. Any extreme emotion is an aggravation of the intensity of the
situation. Being calm and neutral to any and every aspect of life precisely is the
subtle art of accepting the “CHANGE”. With every acceptance we become a strong
pillar of maturity and wisdom.
